Dear Diary,

blah....can't even bear to update in here, but i am needlessly bored wasting time on the computer.

anyway, whatever diet crashed, re-started, crashed etc etc...so yeah

whatev.
Anyway, tomorrow i am fasting against my better judgement. I just f-in feel like it.
Technically it is NOT a good time to start a fast, but i say fuck it...i dont feel like restarting the siberian diet at this time.
i wanna just fast b/c i feel gross and fat from screwin up the diet and if i can keep it up...great. If not, then I'll just restart the siberian diet with a little extra help/weigh-loss from fasting.

anywya, im sick of only talking about thiness in here...i prob should talk about other things.

anyway, i went out with my friend amanda the other night and we had a shit-wild crazy night!!
It was a blast though--i love her! Shes so amazing! We just "fit' when we are together and i dont judge her and she doesnt judge me no matter what happens. We both are super laid-back, thrill-seeking chicks, and we both like to please everyone so we're always trying to please each other when it comes to decisons and fun so we both always win out! : )
So anyway, what started as a cool night that was gonna chill down..turned into a whirlwind of wildness!
We went to the concert The Sounds with Morningwood opening up which was kickass to begin with. We met at a mexican restaurant where i left my car and we caught up on old times talking a million miles a minute and gettin super drunk on margaritas and daquris. Then we went to find the concert venue (fashionably late) and we end up asking like 3 people for directions. Amanda just likes to ask people when we don't know..just pull up next to someone and yell out the window.
Fortunately, I am NOT in nyc anymore, and the lovely people in Georgia are super duper nice and they all gave us great directions with a smile...even though we were obvious young drunk girl blaring the Sounds out the window and singin along.

Anyway, the club was great...Amanda is so outgoing and she really makes me more outgoing and while drinking....well shit..i'm like freakin anna nicole kinda outgoing then...minus the stupid ditzy stuff. Anyway, we talked to all these people...and for some reason, people are so like thrown off that we talked to them..they just like love it and we instantly make a million friends wherever we go.
We even saw Maja (hot blonde lead singer from the Sounds) as she was going into the venue..and i was like 'omg!' and Amanda asks for her name and yells "good luck maja!" and she smiles and blows us a kiss and says "thanx!" in her swedish accent.
Cool!
So then we talk some older chick into staying to watch the Sounds (which was SO worth it btw)
And we dance all night and drink more beer and pick up a few guys behind us even though i said 2 words to them the whole time since i was jumping up and singing all the Sounds kickass tunes!
Then we kinda ditch then towards the end of the concert...i didnt even talk to them and they were a little sneaky.
So we leave and Amanda asks random guys outside the club to "escort us to our car" and of course...these sweet southern guys in GA, they are all bashful and like, uh, okay...and i'm like "no you don't have to, the car is right there(pointing)" and Amanda is like "NOoooo, we Needdd an escort" and i stole some popular alternative radio station poster and stuck it in my shirt like i was pregnant as we walked past the doormen. Then as we were walking away it shot out and behind a car about to leave, and i shot across the pavement to save it with everyone laughing. And then we got "escorted" to our car nicely, and then we blared more Sounds tunes as we drove past the venue and on to Peachtree Street and all the fun downtown atlanta nightlife.

We were gonna go to this lame place Dougans b/c we were supposed to go to a party with Amandas friends, but it got canceled coz something happened idk..
but anyway, we were gonna go there but oh, no....this infamous strip club "lounge" is nextdoor...and amanda says a comment, and i say i've never been and she freaks coz then we gotta go b/c it's this infamous lounge where "strippers go to die" and everyone knows it like that.
so, we go and despite the hefty cover charge, i ask the ladies if it's worth it and we get mixed reviews, but i say what the hell....here we go!
Bathroom experience was a little scary, but it wasn't too unexpected...although all the jiggling was kinda annoying. Most of these chicks were totally not hot. Not really fat, but not skinny, toned, or hot.... But anyway, we got some more drinks talked to some more people, then some sketch guy hit on me, and Amanda did her usual "pretend to be my lover" bit and he went away, but then i had to play it off coz there um..are a lot of lezbos that hang out in this place. Not that i was excited about meeting a "quality" guy in this place!
But anyway, we hit the jackpot.
Ended up meeting this one tall semi-cute rich guy and had some good convo, he couldnt dance well but i talked him into it..he'd never been there either but his friend brought him..then his friend and amanda came over and danced and we had a good time for a bit and then decided to leave towards the end.
We went to our cars and decided to go to another bar...across the street....where i um..lost my thongs for some shots and now they hang above the bar there for all to see w/ a whole bunch of other pairs. haha sweet..at least i had on some kickass teal vickies that night.
So that got old coz the skeezy bartenders were hitting on us and after our free drinks we jetted. Found out skinny guy was uh..MARRIED, so that was it for me. But we went to another club after, and i started talking to the other guy coz amanda was not interested. He was cool, and I actually had more in common with him. He was kinda like the cute nice rich guy who doesnt get out much but needed to be brought out of his shell...and ya know..i was just the girl to do it. lol
So, we talked, and then we were umm on the hunt for some coke...yeah yeah i know...but anyway...we went across the street to this bar/house which i can only describe as....an nba after=party or freaknick on a saturday in april. But ya know...with a scene like that..bout half of those folks in there prob had some shit. And i alWays get hit on by black guys...always, always, always...it's the platinum blonde hair and the butt...
So i knew we'd at least meet some people on account of me and damn if we didnt, but no shit. But it was okay..it was totally not our scene, or not for the guys...they were gonna get beat up and we were gonna get mad hit on, so we left, back to the cars, where we uh..decided to relocate the party to rich guy #2's house.
He was nice and i was digging him..i road in his car with him alone while amanda and the other guy were behind us. And he was cute, we talked, and i just have this way of making my niceness like come out Waaay too much when i'm drunk. I like to help people, so i asked him so much about his life and we had this like super intellectual but fun conversation. Still flirty and things were hot.
He was into me obviously but u could tell he was that nice shy guy, and it was endearing b/c unfortunately...i have a track record of breakin in the 'nive' guys. Not like just sex, but sometimes, but i lOve to show the shy, nice guys how to really have fun. They usually love it too, and I like to show someone that they can be more outgoing and speak up for themselves and have a kickass time!!

Anyway, we pull up to his house. Holy f-in shit!! House was like $700,000+ 4 bedrooms for just him! It was like totally sick how kickass this house was!
I was like...oh, man...and then rich guy #1 tells me #2 broke up with his gfriend not too long ago and he had to buy her a car, and she was a bitch blah blah blah. And this is all just unreal...perfect place for a wild house party. It just intensified the fun.

so things happened we talked outside, i was all dramatic b/c i was just like shocked this was the guys house, and then i felt bad for him b/c i realized our talk and what it meant. He was lonely in the big house and it was sad...he had all this shit, but wasnt happy and it all made sense.
And thats basically what he told me. I'm so philosphical sometimes but it's just what happens, and when i'm drunk, it's a million times worse.
But anyway, shit happens and buddy and i take a tour upstairs and well...lets just say we had a fun night.
Then the next day we get up, and of course, the guy has stocked bottled water for hungover days...i mean, he had everything there shitloads of wine, beer, etc, etc...so i wasnt shocked when everything was available.
But then we went to eat mexican for lunch (they paid), we had a fun time laughing it up and then we exchanged info and Amanda and I took off to get my car at the other mexican place.
We got there and in our hungover fog...amanda said we should get another margarita. I was so fuzzy and it turned into such a wild night (the cool guys we met at the shittiest place in all of atl) so i was like "Sure!"
So i go to the bathroom again (where i was less than 15 hours ago) and we sit in the same clothes as the day before and eat MORE cheese dip and have another drink and shoot the shit about the night and old times.
It was so kickass and rockstar. We had So much fun and laughed the whole time, being ourselves, and doing whatever we wanted.
And somehow, Amanda and I always have a good time. We could be getting arrested and we'd still have fun on the way down..it just wouldnt matter.
And I am just so thankful I have friends like her that i mesh so well with.
It's totally cool...we had SO much fun, and we both talked about how we always have times like that when we go out and everything works out no matter how wild it is! And seriously, I've been drunk and wild with that girl a trillion times, but none of them have ever done bad. It's weird, coz something bad happens sometimes..someone pukes, or gets upset, or has drama, or u meet the wrong people, but that never happens with me and amanda.
So weird, but cool.
I love hanging out with her, but im not sure if i'd wanna do the roomate thing when i move. I dont want it to mess up what we have. Cause it's so kickass.

but anyway, it was such a fun night...even if it doesnt sound that way from me putting it into text...i cant really retype the 'realness' of our inside jokes, but it was fun....take my word for it.
Rock on! Can't wait to have more fun nights with her!