Dear Diary,

i need sex. And it's not like I haven't had it...I have-but i need more.

I definitely have a super freak of nature in me, but rarely does it come out when I'm not in an on-going sexual relationship.

It's usually pretty contained if I'm not sleeping with someone on a regular basis... But lately, I'm sex-crazed.

And nothings wrong with that of course...I just need a fix constantly.

I had the BEST orgasm today too...it was sublimely suburb... Then I had sex with Clint...wasn't very good of course, but I needed real dick. So it had to suffice. He enjoyed it though (of course). He only has sex whenever we (and by we I mean I) decide to have sex periodically. So of course he came quick and hard.

Blah, I coulda used like 2 or 3 more times, but it's not so great with him anyway. Sometimes, I just want sex and hope it'll be decent with him, but it never is. So a lot of times, I'd just as well stick to using my vibrator and good ole fashioned imagaination and/or porn.

I'm so deadly in a relationship though. I frequently overwhelm the guys I'm dating with my sexual appetite. And it just kind of happens.. Especially in the beginning of a relationship. 5 times a day is good for me, and sometimes not enough. At least in the beginning of a relationship. I sometimes feel consumed by the urge and NEED to have sex. I just love sex I guess.

Even after my hormones calm down, I still am horny all the time. I've never had a guy complain, but Clint could never ever keep up with me. I found my wild desires were more of an issue with him b/c he couldn't handle it. He wanted to-but he just couldn't contain me. It's great our relationship ended.. He'd have been the old married woman who never wants to have sex, and I'd be the other denied partner probably cheating on him or something to get my sexual fix. How odd of course-it's usually the other way around.

anyway....i'm just fuckin turned on tonight...

I need to watch some porn, or read some erotica and play some good music and have fun....

I don't think I could go to sleep the way I am feelin now anyway.

Oh, how I sometimes wish I had a "friends with benefits" partner. Someone at my beckon call for sex with no issues at the drop of a hat. Lots of guys say they can be it, but they can't really.

You can't really plan a system like that anyway....it just has to happen. I haven't found a passionate enough guy like that anyway. I just seriously need to be able to just call or text message a code and then the guy needs to be over here in an instant for an all out kinky sex session...and then he just needs to leave.. Fuck-we don't even have to talk at all... except for lovemaking sounds... those are always nice..

I just sometimes wish I had just that. But it's never as easy as it sounds.... Even if guys all over the place are ready and willing... Good sex is hard to find..

I guess I'll just get myself off again today...

seems like a fun night to get the mood set and all that...candle glow, trip-hop acid jazz music...p-le-a-su-re....

Mmmm....goodnight

WEARING: black skirt, purle tank top

LISTENING TO: Massive Attack

MOOD: sultry