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ANA MEMO to ALL fabulous ED girls!! Empower yourself!!!!
Tuesday, Dec. 02, 2003 // 10:39 P.M.

Dear Diary,

So, yesterday i didnt eat anything and the scale went down 2lbs, but then my boyfriend pressured me into eating lunch w/him---but "it's okay, i had subway for lunch" Yeah,right...like when all these people start eating all this bread constantly their not gonna start gettin fat from carbs and sueing Subway for GETTIN fat!!

But anyway, and then i screwed up more and ate a chicken pot pie...not too unhealthy either,but still... I think I actually ate it out of necessity. It's like the only decent food I have left in my apt., and the more it sits around,the more i will be tempted to eat it later..so since i already minorly screwed up today by eating, i might as well get rid of all the decent food right?? Yep---gotta love an ED-girl's rational right?

But still I think I was definitely under 1000 calories...the subway was only like 400 cals including the mayo and cheese....and i had diet coke OF COURSE!

So, anyway,i have a statement to make to all ED girls assuming u dont want help @this particular moment in time....

It might not sound together though cause i am coming up with it as i write, but I just feel the need to put it down.

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SO---How come on most ana sites and message boards etc...we are all being sad and making each other feel sorry for each other and talking about how hard everything is?!??? I mean,this kind of talk can not make people be successful! I just am starting to notice that TONS of people have eating disorders whether they want to admit it or not,and after takin my dance appreciation class...and doing our movemenet sessions...EVERY dancer/performer has an ED!! They say they don't and u might see them eat from time to time, bubt TRUST ME---they ALL skip meals or throw up and think it's okay..I go to huge college and i have seen and havehd teachers talk about it firsthand... It's everyone.

And i know lots of girls who may not proclaim their ana status,yet they won't eat for a few days to fit into a dress or outfit, or they think its okay to throw upif u eat too much everynow and then.. I mean,EVERY girl has an eating disorder to a degree--AND u know what....all of them that do have in common THEIR ALL THIN AND SKINNY!!!!

All the COE and people who think they eat'healthy'and normally are FAT and their usually on some diet from time to time... All the girls i know that are really model-thin have an issue with food although they may not think they do, or confirm that they are ana or mia...

So, what i'm saying it....why are we anas isolating ourselves like we are sad lonely and pathetic people...DAMMIT we are the thin and beautiful elite woman of the world!!! People want to be us, and we look great, we're thin and gorgeous!!

No matter what your gonna have an issue with food, so why not be ATLEAST thin and have the issue with food!?!?!??

At least you can look fabulous!

I just feel that we anas need to embrace our "disease" and see that everyone is like us, but when we are succcessful...we ARE the people everyone else wants to be. We ARE successful. Everyone without ana to a degree is usually fat because the world has such an issue with food these days and people are fatter than ever....yet us anas remain thin and en vogue..

After seeing first hand the realizations of so many people close to home that had EDs,it just made me think ya know.

We should think of ana as something to make us wonderful and thin and successful and not as something that has a hold on us....WE have a HOLD on it, and we are taking from it to make us better!!!

We have to stop thinking we are so pathetic b/c there is NO motivation in that! Grab ana/mia by the balls and MAKE yourself GORGEOUS and thin and whatever u wanna be then let her go when u no longer need her!!! Take control instead of letting it control you! Use it for ur benefit then toss it to the side...Us ana/mias ARE the models, actresses and beautiful sexy women of the world, and if u think i'm wrong...TAKE a closer look...I bet in every thin beautiful girl you admire, you will find some aspect of an ED or a compulsive behavior like exercising etc....EVERYONE is like this, so lets stop thinking like we are ashamed of ana...

BE PROUD OF ANA-YOU ARE IN A "SORORITY OF THE ELITE AND BEAUTIFUL!!"

thats all i have to say b/c i think if u look at it like this...its so much easier to meet your goals! Dont think about it like im different and i cant eat with my friends today...Think about it like,I'm gonna be so much thinner and hotter then them BECAUSE i'm NOT eating today!! Yeah-> EMPOWER yourself to always have the self-respect to change something that no longer makes you happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pass it on.........



WEARING: Cool red sweatpants.....and a t-shirt...hey-its cold and im about to go to bed

LISTENING TO: No Doubt....tragic kingdom

MOOD: Powerful and motivated and def NOT hungry!!

The WeatherPixie

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